lost my religion

Tryna be easier on myself Am I to blame for my mental health Can't live up to my expectations Maybe I might make a deal with satan All of my steps have been met with pain I am a shell of who I remain So far gone lost my religion Stare at the stove when I stand in the kitchen Wonder what I would do in your position Let go of the wheel just to see how it feels Pourin up liquor and skippin my meals Lookin to substances hopin to heal I know bout darkness how quickly it grows Nothing that happens is under my nose Cherish my friends and forgive all my foes Lessons I learned in this life I was chose So when all is said and done I know I tried Still I wish that you had made it through the night We lost the fight with no time for goodbyes Now your cosmic love is written in the sky Got angels and demons that live on my shoulder Here I thought that you'd stay until I was older The thief of my joy and the root of my pain How did you think that I'd go on the same Thought we'd find pleasure Ain't left us no letter Yet this grief you brought me has helped me get better I don't understand all these complex emotions This tear that I shed but a drop in the ocean A drop in the ocean of all of the rest The waves overcome me but I do my best The current is dragging Yet here I'm still standing I owe it to you now to honor your flesh But when all is said and done I know I tried (I know I tried) Still I wish that you had made it through the night (Made it through the night) We lost the fight with no time for goodbyes (No time for goodbyes no no) Now your cosmic love is written in the sky I swear I tried I swear I tried I swear I tried I swear I tried Least I Least I know I tried