Speaking of Courage

It's not fair How the brain turns on itself How I've been left to live in a mental hell After walking through it It's not fair Why do I live when they all die How can I toss my cares aside And leave the past behind You keep breathing in But I can't breath at all The world's taken the air Out of me Hoping for it to swallow me whole Late nights and nightmares I stare at the memories Oh how they break me apart It's not fair Looking through books left behind And not a word is emphasized I'm lost in my mind It's not fair Canned peaches in my lap And the fire on my back They suffocate my cries You keep breathing in But I can't breath at all The world's taken the air Out of me Hoping for it to swallow me whole Late nights and nightmares I stare at the memories Oh how they break me apart I hope someday soon My scars and wounds Will heal right over And sleep will return to me Brisk and sharp Like the cool morning air Now I let myself go Drive down that road Of light and relaxation And I hope they forgive me I hope they understand It's been everything but easy, oh