procaine (feat. autumndropsdead)

Break me apart, I'll probably like it anyways Dirt in my heart, was the cause of the heavy weight Living ain't smart, but it's better than eternal pain With the way that I'm feeling right now, there'd be no way Hot water pours down my head like it's procaine I just dust off the rust, while they're still all joking You hope that they notice, it's hopeless, you know it I've lost grasp, will I get it back? My only consolations momentary to my past I reach out, both my arms, but the sky won't do it back let it go, lay to waste, I may not be here tomorrow Every day feels delayed, bitch, I feed off of the sorrow Shits not a movie, this my real life man my old girl is a groupie They wonder if I'm okay, I don't know I say it loosely I just ran out of Percs, need some more before I'm moody They can kill me that's the beauty Sober days, no cannot relate Ex mad, yeah, get out my face Can't talk she busy at raves Laced pills, yeah, they are my favs Death soon, oh, this is a race Not worth the stress, she in love with the chase In an out, I ain't leavin' a trace Crackin' cards, but beatin' my case Don't wanna talk about it Don't wanna think about it Now you stalkin' on my page, I know you read about it She still playin' all my songs, she think she slick about it And I'm never goin' rehab makin' sure about it Hot water pours down my head like it's procaine I just dust off the rust, while they're still all joking You hope that they notice, it's hopeless, you know it I've lost grasp, will I get it back? The tide casts I can feel you tugging on my heart It's getting colder, hold her It was a set up from the start Hold it still, steady pace, but it never works out My wrists break from the rain as I fall to the ground I've been up for two whole days I can't sleep blow out my brain Xanny bars help numb the pain Need your love right in my veins