Storm After the Calm

The past seems So much brighter Searching for a lighter Smoke my pain away To try to find the words To say, do you remember Love, the sunny weather Memories do fade And feelings aren't forever No You can't control The ball will keep on rollin Sisyphus' stone And know You'll bear the load Until the final blow Will take you to the stone They say that my life Is quite strange They say I'm insane I'm not sure I disagree with them Searchin for a pulse My life brought to a halt Depression takes the wheel Exploiting a fault My mind begins to wander Set and setting somber I begin to feel The things I wish Weren't real No You can't control The world will keep on spinnin Killin time again And know You've got to go Through hell and back To show yourself That you can grow They say that my life is quite strange They say I'm insane I'm not sure I disagree with them And that's when I started to tune out My life beginning to pass me Like a teacher sick of teaching The fire in their eyes turned to glass And I never really understood the rush The hustle and bustle Like moths to the flame Seemingly unaware of impermanence And I'd like to say I know all to well But the truth is I never really caught up with it Perpetually stuck beneath the muse That hook deep in my back Reminding me I have no power Only Struggle And the more I struggle The deeper it goes Until finally it bursts through my chest Like my heart when I see your name In a queue of texts marked received And maybe then, if I'm lucky The beat will slow to a stop And I can finally get some sleep Turn around point your back to me Turn the light on let me see How these things destroy thee Carefully carefully Mentioning all your dreams Everything that you hold dearly Carefully carefully Disown me let me be How these things linger on Tearing through gradients Red to blue Wishing you had never met me wishing you had eyes to see Rootuval evil rippin hearts carelessly The Rootuval evil rippin carelessly To help me breathe Whispering words you want to hear In the fear that you walk away Turn the page Elevate from this place through the grey