Dejection

Straight out of hell Getting higher Call up my dope supplier, kill a choir Might turn into a mass shooter Cut throat getting looser Drug user, self abuser No errors in my terror Are you scared of triple 6? I cut my wrists The pale faced, Yung Disgrace Yung Cobain Heroin in my veins, I think I'm crazed I'm so deranged Suicidal schizophrenic born in evil ways I'm someone you can't tame Manic depressive, I'm over obsessive The elegant elements that I am possessing No changing aggression to you I'm possessive The beautiful art of dejection is stressing My mind is demented, depression a blessing My heart is still aching, I'm longing for ending my life I don't want it, it's Death that I'm calling No lifeline, I'm over debating it often Cut throat silent Live through violence Death is creeping I'm the messiah Blood flow rising Lil schizo hiding while devising my suicide I - I think I'm depressed Stomach full of shit that I can't ingest Life dejected, so neglected, live rejected, don't feel respected That druggy, that junkie, I'll die if I'm lucky Bitch give me your money Igniting my body The ashes they scatter, don't matter, can't fathom, I live for the lessor my life was an error Cut Throat the terror Can't talk I just stutter Limp when I walk all because of the mixture I put in my body everyday daily No stopping, keep popping Addictions are vicious This cycle I'm living, I know I'm not winning The horror is winning, I'm sorry, I'm sorry Defeated, depleted, I'm pleading and sinning My wrists are still bleeding, my knees are still shaking The mass drugs that I'm taking Withdrawals be shaking and aching, degrading The saga's just starting, withdrawing from life it's live or die I ain't choosing life I ain't choosing life