S.M.I.L.E

S is for the sorrows that visit at night M is for the memories clouding in my mind I is for insecurities haunting me all the time And L is for the love that I lost in my life E is for every time I feel I'm not good enough All the walls that I built, now they're falling apart Now my heart became a corrupted file I don't wanna bother anyone so I just smile, yeah Every day still the same story, nothing changed So much pain deep inside, I cannot explain Doctors want to know what's going on inside my darkest place But I don't need anyone to take a trip inside my brain Looking for better ways to live my life in peace And I don't think it'll help to go to therapy Talking bout my feelings is just too exhausting Nobody cares how I feel so I just keep on smiling S is for the sorrows that I visited at night M is for the memories clouding in my mind I is for insecurities haunting me all the time And L is for the love that I lost in my life E is for every time I feel I'm not good enough All the walls that I built, now they're falling apart Now my heart became a corrupted file I don't wanna bother anyone so I just smile, yeah I wish I could talk about how I'm broken But deep inside my demons won't let me open And I'm stuck in this fantasy Watching the things I love turn into memories I put the blame on me for being broken I push people away and pretend like I don't need them Even when things seems to go downhill I just crawl on my shell and keep on smiling S is for the sorrows that I visited at night M is for the memories clouding in my mind I is for insecurities haunting me all the time And L is for the love that I lost in my life E is for every time I feel I'm not good enough All the walls that I built, now they're falling apart Now my heart became a corrupted file I don't wanna bother anyone so I just smile, yeah