Therapy Session

I'm addicted to pain, I know that sounds insane But, pain is the one thing that I utilize in my life to grow up Fake smiling every time and nobody knows it's just a cover up It's hard for me to trust people, that's why I'm always closed up Trapped inside my brain, and I feel like I'm ganged up By the voices inside my head, I can't seem to shut em up I don't need no help, even though my life is messed up I feel like nobody understands, that's why I'm always locked up Losing a piece of my heart, trying everyday to stitch it up No matter how much I try, it gets even more fucked up I'm not an introvert, I just don't like no drama Sitting around people, feels like I'm stuck in a coma I wish I could clear all my memories, so I can forget about all these tragedies But I know that I can't, so I'll be in my fantasy In hopes to create a new reality Welcome to my therapy session My therapy session This is my therapy session Hope I find a revelation I built my walls up high and let nobody in Don't wanna open up, I'd rather stay here and slip in Got all these scars, they need some time to heal I got two faces, I don't even know which one is real I tried to kill the hate, by befriending my demons Thought everything would change, like the yearly seasons But everything got worse, feels like I committed a treason I've been hard on myself, I don't even know the reason I've been living my life in the fast lane Everyday in a mask, like a cosplay Tryna outrun my past and my old ways But I can't seem to find the light for my dark days I wish I could clear all my memories, so I can forget about all these tragedies But I know that I can't, so I'll be in my fantasy In hopes to create a new reality Welcome to my therapy session My therapy session This is my therapy session Hope I find a revelation