Trying Not To Feel

Can't decide if the night is worse than the morning When I'm reminded I can't do anything Yeah I'm alive and I've still got something to live for It's just that I don't have a reason to rise from the bed And I'm trying not to feel Like nothing really matters And I'm trying not to fear The end of all I know And I'm trying not to feel Like nothing really matters at all Yeah at all Guess if I had to find a silver lining I pass the time finding new ways to be depressed Spend every day that the sun's out nude in the garden Coz I wanna be who decides if I'm free to be wild and when All I know is I'm trying not to feel Like nothing really matters And I'm trying not to fear The end of all I know And I'm trying not to feel Like nothing really matters at all Yeah at all And I'm trying I'm free, I'm free, I am, I am I'm wild, I'm wild, I am, I am Don't force, don't force my hand, my hand Can't take from me what I won't give And you'll see what I mean When the light is green You won't see me I'm not waiting for you to tell me (I'm trying) (Nothing really matters at all)