Still Broken

Sittin In this room feel I fell in the abyss Thinking bout the past can't help but reminisce I been thinking bout the days before you'd fade in the distance Thinking bout the days before it changed and went different It was such a simple time before the pain of you leaving If you never fix your past there's some that say you repeat it And there's so much I should write I wanna say cuz I mean it But there's so much shit that's said from all the pain as a you heal it But it's sticking in my brain and when I wake it's regrets Swear sometime I feel I'm dying from this pain in my chest I'm still grieving from my losses every days a refresh And Maybe I was in the casket when they laid him to rest I'm a broken open mess i guess it's safer to say No one knows the Boulders left behind to weigh from the pain Always wish that shit was different steady say that I'll change But repeat the fucking actions that has made me this way I'm addicted to the pain and write the songs to escape Now you get just why I'm pissed they say that all it is fake Feel the pressure weigh me down but still ain't walking away Facing demons everyday feels like a ball and a chain Put the pain into the page for all the ones who relate Giving aid in times, for me there was no comfort to take Used to pray to never feel until I tucked it away Now I pray to feel something cuz I'm numb every day I'm addicted to the art, it takes the pain to create But still I give this shit my heart, with every statement I make Like how I gave you all my trust for you to take it away Feeling broken as I write this here just laying awake…