It's Okay, I'll Be Okay

I'm all yours Yours truly All yours I could ponder every mistake I make I could think about you everyday but that won't make you love me Why would you anyway i'm just so bummy I'm just a giant dummy I look in a mirror and just think oh f*ck me Sadness was kicked for a minute but now it came and kicked back Ruined my kick back I just wanna sit back drink a cup of tea and see where the night leads me Never in your arms Just another night alone on a couch and an achy back Another night alone and an achy heart Better get used to it Cause finding this feeling was way too different I don't wanna seek love I just wanna see love I don't wanna seek love I just wanna see love No matter the way I go No matter the vow I make No matter the way I say the words I mean I know you're never gonna love me I can't be loved I'm lovesick and sick of being alone But this sword engraved in my heart says i'm a loner So i'm standing in open flames feeling cold and sold on sadness This idea of madness soothes all these open wounds Cause maybe then reality could be a wonderland and land me in a smile Every single day In every single way And i could lose this grip on my pain Cause I could be okay If i just stay away But i don't wanna go Every single moment with you is slowed down My heart speeds up I'm so problematic I'm sorry if this self hate is so automatic It's hard to love yourself when everyone berates you I try my best But there is no rest But its okay, ill be okay I'll be alone when the night ends The ache in my heart Has a silver lining You taught me to live When all I wanted was to go Teach me the way of your love So alone I been wayward Your eyes met mine then I could barely say words I been looking all my life for you Like a goblin never dead But waiting on death and i'm waiting on you Pulling me apart to defeat our demons I'll always come back from the grave in order to save the love we share and Hold you in my arms then stare into the abyss of your pretty eyes The only lies that I got are the way I hate myself by saying that all is fine You can never be mine but everything is still fine Pain is a bitch but i'm okay suffering if you are happy in the moments with me The moments I cherish the moments I wish I could relive and redo just a moment with you I'm so happy i'm in pain with a smile on my face and tear running down my cheek I may hurt but i don't mind I really don't mind lying to make you smile when my tears are about fall When I see you its like a dream come true You fine tuned my mind You let my demons out I know its alright I know i'm happy with you Truly