Heat Death

So I'm rewriting history again Trying to make sense of all these contradictions Have I been living a lie? Am I just believing what I was told? I never dreamed up or planned this This dark night of the soul I always thought you would catch me But what if you don't? You always said that I'm more than a moment I need something more I can hold Because it ended the same way it started And I'm left here waiting alone I'm searching hard for the truth It's really all that I want Thought I would find it in you What if I'm wrong? You always said that I'm more than a moment I need something more I can hold Because it ended the same way it started And I'm left here waiting alone If I cannot break free Of everything holding me down I'll find a back door I'll find another way out of this hell