Delusions

I am in my head I am in my head I am in my head I am in my head World is talking to me nice Likes going up Caught up in a vice I'm being praised for haze of perfection Put in promos like my shine is the light I am nothing standing solo put my ego on ice If He go maybe me go cheat on my wife Go back to drugs and the people of night See because He lets me be see my sight Prayed to the Father to fill my insides Going to church didn't believe in the smiles This must be fake now All I need to do is call to Him and be found Nah I rather sit and be proud Stuck with a frown Feeling down to be down If only I asked Him He'd pass my crown Rather hear me than God's healing abound I am in my head I am in my head I am in my head I am in my head Why, how can I submit to these lies? Girls tricking I got to treat them till they found Blind leading blind I could not see it wow I became the same poison to their flesh that killed mine I willed I could be God world denies I provide They keep leeching I turn dry I give answers More questions arise I can't be street I can't be love I can't be me I can't be yall I just feel numb I just feel pain Can't make no sense but chasing that green Help me Father I'm a sinner being delivered to slaughter I done played your daughters I done killed your fathers I done robbed the weak I done came up hardened I done forgot my people I surrender a martyr Hands up