In Between

I'm starting off this letter with I want to thrive I want to live I want to give what I can give But everyday there's something Is it worth it all so I can fall I don't want anymore tomorrows And so now I see into the past Then maybe I can get away But that's only bringing me back Might I add another line To my wrist and to the tabs Of every time I realize That I'm ignorant to the signs I don't want to be alive But I doubt if I can decide If I can even take a life Despite if it is mine I don't want to be alive But I doubt if I can decide If I can even take a life Despite if it is mine And hope that I can make it out alive I can see that this isn't the time I can fly when I dream at night But the only thing I want's for you to let me die If there is an afterlife will I see the gates Or am I destined to burn I want God to make up his mind If there is an in between does that Mean I get to see both sides I fear what's on the other side Of this entire thing we call life but I don't want to be alive But I doubt if I can decide If I can even take a life Despite if it is mine I don't want to be alive But I doubt if I can decide If I can even take a life Despite if it is mine I don't want to be alive But I doubt if I can decide If I can even take a life Despite if it is mine I don't want to be alive But I doubt if I can decide If I can even take a life Despite if it is mine I don't want to be alive But I doubt if I can decide If I can even take a life Despite if it is mine I don't want to be alive But I doubt if I can decide If I can even take a life Despite if it is mine