Trials & Tribulations

Why Spend your time In your mind Thinking all these different things? So mean Don't bleed The thoughts are all the same Whose to blame For the mess You created? in your chest Is a heart If you think Hard enough it stops beating And if my younger self Saw what I made He might love his self I'm trying everything To justify my actions But that only leaves me with more Of a mess to clean up Going back and removing these tough Memories I cannot go on With the thoughts plaguing my head Enemy of myself I find Self harm is the new plight Carrying all the weight of myself On my shoulders Why Spend your time In your mind Thinking all these different things? So mean Don't bleed The thoughts are all the same Whose to blame For the mess You created? in your chest Is a heart If you think Hard enough it stops beating Who knew peoples motivation to live Is excitement for a life after death? If I want to get better I will Until then my shame is my Punishment I will Swallow my pride and shame Afterwards I will still be hungry I will never be full again Sentimental and stuck in my Memory is all the times I would spend being lost and thriving Off of self mutilation Why spend your time being hateful to yourself? Why not be inviting to yourself? Why not be inciting to yourself Trials and tribulations