Black Lipstick

Years of messages that just ache of being closer to each other Swiftly wink at me at the gig with your new boyfriend for the month It seemed as if you always wanted me Over every kid that I wanted to be Sleeves and gaps in flesh wider than my palm Skinny frame, lanky arms and legs I was the complete opposite But still your first draft pick I was stunned... When we finally met you could cut the tension with the katana blade From the samurai tattoo on your shoulder Wine drunk and video game streamers for hours until complete silence For all the reasons you can expect Hundreds of dollars stolen just to make the distance work And it surely did work Your own personal chauffeur tailored by my father's paychecks I showed you off to all my friends We looked like a super villain couple from a comic book Me with my scary looks and black boots You with your sharp hair and paper skin You were amazed at the lack of hatred people had towards me And frankly so was I Astounded by the fact I was with someone who wanted to be with me Consistently Every weekend lingered the smell of cheap cigarettes and iced coffee The smell still stayed for weeks after you decided to hit with the "I think we should stop seeing each other" I'm still perplexed to this day Maybe the distance was too much for my goth goddess Or maybe clinging to another sociopathic, abusive ex But I remained calm For that's all I could do We haven't spoken since Maybe you'll hear this one day and kick me in the teeth Or maybe bring me some cigarettes Sometimes I still smoke that brand of cheap cigarettes To remember the taste of 3 months lost But were far from meaningless