I Haven't Slept So Well in Years

Is it so bad to care this time Is it a shame to watch them die I haven't slept so well in years Please let them all go away It is not so bad That I am not as Sane as I once was No it's a blessing It's No it's not so bad That I am now As far off course in life As ever before I've found myself in a big mess A bloody cesspool of junk thoughts No more will any of this blur My vision's clear as can be