Fake My Death and Run

It scares me how I can't just restart What can I do but watch it fall apart What is this world I can't control Too many mistakes are taking their tole And my mind is distant from my soul and my bones Its been that way since I tried to numb pain But now my mind sits all on its own Numbing my life till I go insane And I'm not scared of death but I'll never pull my own trigger But I just hate to live cause I'm scared I'll never be the winner And in my mind I know that I am just a wretched sinner And as I go the world's weight just grows a little bigger I wish I could just Fake my death and... Fake my death and run Fake my death and... Fake my death and run Tried to reset and... Forget all that I've done Fake my death and... Fake my death and run I'd leave no one in need, so I let myself dream Would really anything change if I got up to leave And what's holding me down from being dust in the wind Except that little hope that my life will soon begin And I'm not scared of death but I'll never pull my own trigger But I just hate to live cause I'm scared I'll never be the winner And in my mind I know that I am just a wretched sinner And as I go the world's weight just grows a little bigger I wish I could just Fake my death and... Fake my death and run Fake my death and... Fake my death and run Tried to reset and... Forget all that I've done Fake my death and... Fake my death and run And I'm not sure it'll fix anything But maybe one day I'll be desperate enough to try Until then I'll try and sing Everything out of this mind Cause I'm not scared of death but I'll never pull my own trigger I just hate to live cause I'm scared I'll never be the winner And in my mind I know that I am just a wretched sinner And as I go the world's weight just grows a little bigger I wish I could just Fake my death and... Fake my death and run Fake my death and... Fake my death and run Tried to reset and... Forget all that I've done Fake my death and... Fake my death and run