I Found God In a Gym Parking Lot

This skin is a canvas A work of art displaying all of my failures And imperfections A constant reminder That if I'd tried I'd probably make it through this But right now I don't want to I'd like to apologize to my younger self But these drugs and affirmations never seemed to help Crooked teeth and scrapped up knees I'm shocked this body held Got the scars to count the things I'll never talk about I'm not sure if I'm alive Because this god damn hell of mine Never feels like it's ending, who am I kidding I'm not getting better It's not getting better This skin is a canvas A work of art displaying all of my regrets and attempts to fix them A constant reminder That no matter how hard I try I'll never Meet my own expectations I'm not sure if I'm alive Because this god damn hell of mine Never feels like it's ending, who am I kidding I'm not getting better It's not getting better It's not getting better I wish I was better But it's not getting better