Year With a Stranger

Gotta run back, run back in time Warn myself that I’ll break, I’ll cry Are lessons learnt more important, Than mirrors with strangers’s portraits Who am I? There’s something that your mother said Ever since, it’s not left my head Hoping to God you’re an imposter Otherwise, she’s “raised a monster” I spent a year with a stranger A boy who put me in danger Thought he’d find himself in locked lips The whole world at his fingertips Don’t know him now Did I know then? Thinks the world bows Thinks it will bend Maybe it’ll break him Thrashed through my old year books Can’t find my face in one So I’ll find it in boy’s looks But I’m not there, I’m gone So I’ll just lose myself in the liquor Let them have their way Hands run up my shirt and my eyes flicker I’m not gonna stay I know if they don’t hurt me they’ll break me Cause I’m just a game And they only want me when there’s no fee All boys are the same There’s something that I once said Ever since, it’s not left my head Is the boy a year ago gone? Or am I dusk waiting for dawn? I spent a year with a stranger A boy who put me in danger Thought I’d find myself in locked lips The whole world at my fingertips Don’t know me now Did I know then? Knows the world prowls Knows that I’ll bend I won’t let it break me I used to stumble through your long halls After we spun in our makeshift balls And then fall into the bed we shared You’d stare in my eyes; pretend you cared Tied me in your arms, lips on the cusp Closed eyes, lean in. It’s you I can trust Haha f*ck that shit I’m so fucking dumb There’s something that your mother said Ever since, it’s not left my head Hoping to God you’re an imposter Otherwise, she’s “raised a monster” I spent a year with a stranger A boy who put me in danger Thought he’d find himself in locked lips The whole world at his fingertips Don’t know him now Did I know then? Thinks the world bows Thinks it will bend Hope it will break him