rain blurs the night

I should have turned around I should have stayed But it's far too late For better decisions now There's no safety in this world My wheels are slipping And there's nothing outside But deep dark water It's a long way to home And only the rain would know If I've dug my own grave Out of steel and regret There's still so much more and yet My headlights aren't that brave Out the corner of my eye Something catches the light If only for a moment Then it's gone Maybe someone else Shattered to pieces Reduced to wreckage For who knows how long Whenever I see a crash I wonder if it's me I've passed My mind avoiding the grave One last dream before I go I turn on the radio And I know I can't be saved Because there are voices Calling me to rest And with horror I recognize one as mine A choir from the past I can't tell what's real It's raining in my car As they consume me I'm finally home In the driveway I let go Unsure if I've missed my grave In bed, as my clothes seep I drift off at last to sleep In the morning I'll find out If I've made it Or if I've died