tired of things that break

Anhedonia The devil I came to save Has taken all the joy I've had And buried it in a grave Catatonia Waiting for the sun to rise The chemicals fight to take control With me as its prize And the thing about limits Is there's only so much they can take Some things have to give Some things have to break And if I ever meant anything at all Please don't watch me now Let it be enough that I held out this long Somehow If you have to be here At least do it with a smile Let it be enough, that I was At least for a while Ataraxia I'll roll my fate again A purpose in the pointlessness But for me, original sin Neurasthenia I can't seem to get a grip The crowd then starts to leave As I begin to slip And if I ever meant anything at all Please don't watch me now Let it be enough that I held out this long Somehow If you have to be here At least do it with a smile Let it be enough, that I was At least for a while And I understand That there's beauty in fragile things But when they shatter why even be And I understand That some things have to break But do they have to break in me? I guess I meant nothing at all And no one's watching now This will have to be enough for me Somehow It's just me alone in this room Who cares about what I'll do?