Oath To Nothing

I made an oath to who I am For I could never comprehend This eulogy of my questioning This is how I bleed I can't fathom who I'm meant to be It makes it hard to even believe I can't maintain what I think I used to say that I'd do anything to Finally heal But now I get that this what I'm supposed to feel I feel a change of heart Tearing at the seams Bringing me back to the start I'd kill If I felt anything but entropy Forever my own design I'd rather die with broken bones Than live a life a hollowed soul This life is meaningless If there's nothing to change I made an oath to who I am For I could never comprehend This life is meaningless If there's nothing to change Over my dead body These bones were meant to break It is not my will but I'm still A shattered vessel Pursuing to heal I breathe in I breathe out But the air doesn't reach my lungs But someway And somehow I can't seem to give this up I'd rather die with broken bones Than live a life a hollowed soul This life is meaningless If there's nothing to change I made an oath to who I am For I could never comprehend This life is meaningless If there's nothing to change I bury my burdens and watch them resurface I bury my burdens and watch them resurface I bury my burdens and watch them resurface They pull me Torturing Stitched to anxiety I start to panic when I see A terrible fate stare back at me What refuses to fight Remains dead on the inside Dead on the inside I'd rather die with broken bones Than live a life a hollowed soul This life is meaningless If there is nothing left I made an oath to who I am For I can't comprehend This life is meaningless If there's nothing to change