heavy

If you're watching this, then I'm already dead So my eyes are a bit red, but no, I'm not stoned, I hope you are though My life is heavy, you couldn't move it In my shoes, wanna do some, you couldn't do it She said I'm not the one, she must think she cupid And I'm tired of peoples opinions, like dawg you are clueless Wanna ask haters, like why do you do this? Stroud really sucks, I ignore it with music Newcastle the best, I wanna go back I never will because of my dad I want to love, I want it so bad I can't because my generation bad I wanna go, but my mom will be sad I can't do nothing, I'm stuck inna trap Ungrateful they think, I am the opposite They say what they say, I will deposit My feelings away, so I will await for something to change I'm a changer when I'm feeling the danger I got at least 18 old me's Feeling like I took down 18 trees 'Cause all of them me's had there own things I'm a hater when it comes to me cause they all tryna take down me A verbal abuser, ask joey Did that to many, I'm sorry But, all y'all deserve it I hid behind curtains Y'all looked for me and decided that I'm worthless Got a wrong vibe from the country and now I'm allergic You getting too close, acknowledge my emergence See that I'm hurting, you twist it and hurt it Y'all are not perfect And I am so certain And I'm always me Blonde, purple, pink Whatever you see, I still go hard and I'm good for your team Do you wanna know what I know? I stayed here for the shows My favorite person, they know, yeah Screw being woke Always been alone So my face stuck to this phone My mother really don't like me I don't blame her I lost hope I get up and tell myself That I failed her And my minds dealt With so much now That I forget my moms health And I'm in hell I need some intel On my mind Like tell me how I felt How I felt