Letter To Myself (Freestyle)

The biggest poison in us is regret I think there are a lot of people that have dreams And aspirations of things that they always wanted to do But it wasn't the right time Or they didn't have enough money or they didn't have enough experience It's never the right time You're never gonna have the right experience And all of a sudden you wake up and you're seventy And you're like, God, I wish I could have done it It's what you don't do that screws with you later on I get one shot at this life This is it I got my eyes wide open, more focused than I have ever been I'm in a better place than I was the other day I had to lose myself, now it's time to find my way God broke me down, now I gotta go reshape Ten-toed pivot, that's how I'm living Breaking all the cycles and do it for my children Fighting off demons, God damn it, an I'm winning And the shit I'm cooking up got it hotter than Hell's Kitchen, Uhh! No longer will I live in pain It's time for me to free myself out this mental cage And I will never be the same Cause I done did some shit that I'm taking to the grave Oh, I will never sell my soul, no Walking down this long road, oh Still gripping on my pole, oh, oh, oh Mmmmm, still gripping on my pole Still gripping on my pole, gripping on pole Mmmm mmmmm mmmmmm! I come alive in the nighttime It's like the only time that I shine It made me harder than a motherfucker Every single time that I cried, all I know is pain So I try to stay sheltered from it I ain't hurt yet, I guess I gained something from it Grandma told me, I gotta stop running from it Free yourself and try to learn something from it I done been to hell and back way too many fucking times I'm all out of tears, guess it's time to wipe my eyes Everyone I love always seems to leave or die Reason I don't come around, I'm tired of saying bye Who would ever thought life would be like this So many times I cried, but I loved that bitch Who would ever thought love would feel like this Begging you for pain as I'm crying and shit I'm on a search to find peace in a fucked up world But this ain't it for me, I'ma fight through the hurt Prove everybody wrong who drug my name through the dirt I had to leave a bitch to know my worth I got hate in my heart with love on my mind But that shit is hard to show when you're dying inside If you're feeling what I'm feeling, then let's take a ride Hit the henday 2am, smoke a blunt and just vibe My words they paint pictures for the broken hearted Hitting home runs cause home is where the heart is Everything I do, I do for my sons and my daughters And I finally found a way up out of the darkness, Uhh!