Bad friend

Why am I such a bad friend? God, I wanna change Why am I so selfish? I was supposed to make it about them and I made it about me I wanna listen, I don't wanna talk I wanna not be needy, I wanna not judge I wanna make them laugh, I don't wanna be a burden How am I even a Christian that's not Christ-like? Why am I like this? Why am I so prideful? I'm so sick and tired of messing up I want them to have a good time I want them to feel your love I wanna listen, I don't wanna talk I wanna not be needy, I wanna not judge I wanna make them laugh, I don't wanna be a burden How am I even a Christian that's not Christ-like? I always say the wrong thing And always at the wrong time I'm always overthinking Can't find a single reason to justify why you even gave me friends I shouldn't be allowed God, please save them from me I wanna listen, I don't wanna talk I wanna not be needy, I wanna not judge I wanna make them laugh, I don't wanna be a burden How am I even a Christian that's not Christ-like? God Help me please!