Save me from myself

I don't even know what to say And I don't even know where to start I thought I had it all together but I'm falling apart God I've tried to memorize the scriptures I've tried praying all through the night Even placed some cards on my pin board But I'm starting to doubt If I know that you changed my life, if I'm so secure in you Then tell me why am I crumbling like sand? If I'm building my life on the corner stone, tell me how many things am I doing wrong? Cuz I'll question my worth and identity if somebody doesn't laugh at my jokes Why do I feel so unlovable? And why do I dwell in the past? If you made me a new creation, why doesn't my joy seem to last? Jesus save me from myself Jesus save me from the lies Save me from this hopelessness, you already did it once I come boldly before your throne Give me grace, fix this broken home I am weak and Lord I surrender I give you my all God I've tried to memorize the scriptures I've tried praying all through the night I've been quoting Mark nine:24 But I need more than that If I know that you changed my life, if I'm so secure in you Then tell me why am I crumbling like sand? If I'm building my life on the corner stone, tell me how many things am I doing wrong? Cuz I'll question my worth and identity if somebody doesn't laugh at my jokes Why do I feel so unlovable? And why do I dwell in the past? If you made me a new creation, why doesn't my joy seem to last? Jesus save me from myself Jesus save me from the lies Save me from this hopelessness, you already did it once Jesus save me from myself Jesus save me from the lies Save me from this hopelessness, you already did it once Save me from this hopelessness, you already did it once