i don't wanna be me

I don't want to be me Hating who I've become Who I've turned into The torture on my come up Depression ain't gone away Wishing I was better in every way But I got to settle for this mistake Dying lately in the fray But will not die today Living in the shadows And in the depths Wanting to get the tat "dying lately" Plus a semicolon for the ones I do And write these songs for yea What do they see? What do they know? How my feelings are betrayed Hence why I'm on the low, no show But guess what I live with the pain, in my head But no one really gives a damn anymore And I live coming up alone I just wanted help man I see the therapist Things I can't heal Just from talking anymore nah Just popping them pills everyday My life just having dyin in the fray Grey skies Stormy clouds Over my head Just want it to end Can't live with it anymore I will fight till my last breath And swing the sword But will I survive in the end? I don't want to be me Hating who I've become Who I've turned into The torture on my come up Depression ain't gone away Wishing I was better in every way But I got to settle for this mistake Dying lately in the fray But will not die today Living in the shadows And in the depths Wanting to get the tat "dying lately" Plus a semicolon for the ones I do and write these songs for yea Jake coming up in a way that's so violent Making me believe I'm unloved Devils henchman really killing me Can't do it anymore Can't handle the blood, of my past It haunts me to this day Wish I knew how to heal and feel something again Instead of the numbness I force myself to feel Don't wanna be locked up, but am afraid that's what it'll come to, all while I'm 17 Grey skies Stormy clouds Over my head Just want it to end Can't live with it anymore I will fight till my last breath And swing the sword But will I survive in the end? I don't want to be me Hating who I've become Who I've turned into The torture on my come up Depression ain't gone away Wishing I was better in every way But I got to settle for this mistake Dying lately in the fray But will not die today Living in the shadows And in the depths Wanting to get the tat "dying lately" Plus a semicolon for the ones I do and write these songs for yea