omniscient

I'm back writing some sad tracks, aye I'm here floating through the motions My mind untold, aye But I'm feeling down in the dirt Because that is all I've ever known Always feeling bent and hurt It is always the worst Never had anyone there for me To bring me out the dark times Wishing I was Omniscient To bring me back Out of insanity To find solace in the chaos Constant feeling of being alone No one to hold me, through the tears It is a constant struggle, to even find my voice It never really was a choice To deal with all of the shit I deal with on the day to day, aye Fear of dying alone, no one loving me I send prayers up to Heaven, never feel like they're answered So I sit, wanting to cry Tears never fall, face always dry But I always seem to fall in July Still here suffering on the day Struggling to write the words I wanna say Want to vent that emotion, but no one gives a damn Grew up keeping it in and to myself, aye I'm back writing some sad tracks, aye I'm here floating through the motions My mind untold, aye But I'm feeling down in the dirt Because that is all I've ever known Always feeling bent and hurt It is always the worst Never had anyone there for me To bring me out the dark times Wishing I was Omniscient To bring me back Out of insanity To find solace in the chaos I lay in bed, staring at a plain ceiling I constantly wonder, If I'm going to die alone Scars on my chest, and neck From something I don't want to forget But she already has, on the sunset Wanting to come alive at night But it always is, such a fright To be with my thoughts always causes such a bite Whether to be polite or need to expedite Or maybe I, need to depress All these thoughts in my head Always have to see it as progress But it always is overhead Darkness always is misread I come out fine but questioning everything In my path Truth is, can I be saved once again