Quiet

Dear friends that are gone Sorry I never looked back where were from I was just busy, so busy, too busy To miss being the person I thought that I was Coping to deal with these vices I know Hoping to heal from this pain Still it grows Constantly changing positions Permission to mention The trauma that made me alone And all of this poison that still inside I cannot deny, this the shit I like A darkness eats at me every night And vomits the moment I see the light Cause I see the pain & I swim in it Manipulate people, I'm villainous Im hating myself for not doing shit Don't know how to deal, I feel unequipped To manage emotions I'm given Religiously sinning A God who ain't hearing The prayers I'm sending The things I think just isn't right, Yeah I know I get it But really I don't fit in My anxiety Won't let me win No matter how hard I try In the end Sont toutes pareilles à la fin So don't tell me I'm great Cause I'm fucking fake Don't lie to me saying "It'll be okay" You don't know my past All of my mistakes Everyday I hurt All I feel is pain I don't deserve love But fucking need it I don't deserve joy I don't have a reason Ashamed & a liar No one can see it You don't hear these words Cause now their leaving And now your leaving