why? idk

It never stops and I just want to make it out of here These obstacles give me fear This fogged up glass makes my future not so clear I feel like I can't get anywhere Even at the top I still feel so low With friends, I feel alone Why? I don't know I'm afraid I'll become a failure with everything in my life Even though it's just fine I feel isolated even with the sunshine All I see is hard rain and the cold nights And I can't help it I just deal with it alone so I don't feel selfish Is this worth it? I don't know Why do I keep beating myself up? From the music and my education Adding pressure, making my mind racing I just want to make everyone proud But all my doubts are knocking loud overpowering me Don't take any risk it makes me more of a coward you see? And I don't wanna let my parents down or my friends either But sometimes I feel like I can't even get anything done, procrastinating nonstop Digging an even deeper hole And with every moment and action, I screw myself even more Overthinking got me fucked up Why do I gotta function like this? Every day it is always me fighting Trying It never stops and I just want to make it out of here These obstacles give me fear This fogged up glass makes my future not so clear I feel like I can't get anywhere Even at the top I still feel so low With friends I feel alone Why? I don't know Why? I don't know Even at the top I still feel so low With friends I feel alone Why? I don't know