Making Rasta Pasta

Tell me what you want, it’ll happen right now Everything I dreamed of happened out of town Ran away from home I’ll come back when I’m dead I dont believe in death no one is really dead Shouldn’t of dog food, that shit went to yo head Every day passed by is another time spent Slithering without you living in sin Come into my life and we’ll meet The best end Middle of a road 4 corners which end If I let you take the lead would you just treat me like your friend? Things that aren’t me I pretend tend tend I’m not over you I’ve just been very distant Thoughts cascading into forms of unending It’s just feeling like a curse I was born in a prison Drive 10 hours just to rip me from my arms I’ve never known comfort and it’s just my own fault Everybody makes mistakes I dont mind on the surface In my mind’s minds eye I shake my head till its hurting Whistling to no one I hope no one heard it And if someone wants to love me then I think I won’t hurt Not the type to yell nor argue nor love you I’ve been forever distant I dont think I’ve ever flirted I had visions on acid that my life is in a circle I peeled back the same sheets nestled deep within my covers A thousand times and running doesn’t stop unless I want it I want to be an innovator I want to feel the joy of comfort I want to learn feel emotions and be hurt by a woman I want to learn to feel emotions and be loved by a woman I have nestled superstitions, so often I’m reclusive I tell lies to myself but I never make excuses Not impressed with myself until I change the world twice Am I living in delusion or is Jesus by my side I re-read the Bible I think that he lives within me With all the other beings and my long lost family Got a message from the dark and your face came to me Saw you last week and you aint say shit to me Treat you like a saint when I know you get slutty Your speaking voice is soft and you never seem to judge me Is that all that it takes? Well I guess I am a sucker Dont nobody know my face Im a smooth mother fucker This my thousandth life back to them same covers Ignorance is bliss but it’s also just as endless To live inside a loop but never know you live in it Afterlife is new I can be the first tenant How to get there when I’m making rasta pasta To escape humanity I must escape into the mountains Or perhaps into the books and let my spirit be the fountain That brings parables of peace and understanding to my psyche Am I really capable or is my life out to smite me Synchronicities increase and there’s this energy inside That’s the hardest to explain it just feels like moving lightning The hardest to accept, I barely even think you like me Hope my words aren’t hopeful, but the honesty is honest To feel death inside the ground and be rebirthed like Adonis The one time I bought you flowers is when I saw your honest smiling Never one to leave telegraph that I know it You claimed you had love what an indecent way to show it Though I’m with you on this pillow I’m alone and it’s hurtful I love you deep inside but I’ll never tell or show you I think you’re so pretty but sometimes I think you’re not My mind’s a contradiction that I always close off My left ear hears the song the right ear hears the world If I had all that I desire would I still desire the world I wouldn’t cuz I dont, I want freedom more than hope I can’t stay in one place because I’m scared to have a home How belonging to a group and having traits by which you’re known Sounds like infinitudes of torture where I’ll never be alone If my demise is televised I’ll terrorize the first row With wistful friends the Grateful Dead will have their fun at your expense All seats will be empty, separated from the man I watched the circle eat the cube I haven’t been the same since But I remain the same one with split sides and two legs Who walks above and underneath to go make bets with all my friends The job I have is not important, I save glory for the land Watch the land become my skin as it decays and disappears Trained my mind to be gracious how I hate to be with them I trained my mind to be absorbent now I finally understand I watched you walk away with smiles as I pretend to understand If love is everlasting we could always meet again