C o n t e m p l a t e d

I remember cutting my wrist in the bathtub wishing I die This before I had my first son I was depressed and I don't know why Contemplated death then I walked out seen my Mama eyes Went to my room and started to cry dropped to my knees asking GOD why Looked out the window to the sky I just wanted to go and fly then I thought to myself would I really fly if I took my life Opened the Bible started to read It landed on Psalm seventy three twenty six verse Felt like GOD was talking right to me Opened my eyes and now I see My life ain't bad as I thought it be Dodged death a few times growing up in the D Got shot at on the block I was still just a teen I remember pulling up to the crib after work A dude pulled up with a gun but it jammed I'm so glad it didn't work Amen My son was two and my daughter was on the way In a split second my life could of been gone away Went in the house and then I prayed Lord it's time for a change I don't wanna die young I got two kids I explained I'll change show me the way I'll change show me the way Then that night I gotta visit from my Aunt Cine She was in my chair sewing Rubbed my eyes a couple times She was still there when I looked So I know it was for real God sent her to my side just to show me that he's here From that day on I loved life I was blinded and got my sight I was lost and found a way Now I'm blessed I can't complain I got all I ever dreamed a wife and kids that need me GOD stepped in Satan thought he can take me I contemplated death I ain't wanna be here no more I ain't wanna be here no more I contemplated death I ain't wanna be here no more I ain't wanna be here no more Aye look no matter what happens or how bad it seems today life does go on and it will be better tomorrow Soak up the views take in the bad weather and the good weather You are not the storm When you feel like giving up just remember the reason why you held on for so long keep going In my Mama words keep pushing yea