Pardon Me...

And all I ever wanted, was a bad bxtch I swear to god, I had two changes, but I lost them And I ain't placing blame, it is what it is, maybe one of you can sit down and please explain Was it my fault Did I do something wrong I'm 24, and been engaged twice Nice Maybe if I changed, that'll probably do me right I'm drinking once again, I'm dying slowly, I ain't trying to live this life Mountains of stress Lots of regrets I wonder if the Angels up above is betting of me just to see if I will pass God's test But am I failing, huh This fork in the road, is starting to look familiar Don't you mind me I'm just hella curious I'm just looking for some answers I've been questioning myself But maybe if I let go I can find some peacefulness From lacerations A scar builds up, dirty blade in my hand Cut me Don't give a f*ck I'm a loner, come closer, pushed back And I knew, what I wanted, what's that It was you, from the jump It was me fucking up Couldn't love you enough I wasn't man enough Now I'm Smoking heavy, moving slowly, my friends tell me they don't know me I done lost everything from my fiancé, down to my homies Mirror image I see you looking, and I hate what I see F*ck what you heard, I knew what I did I ain't think it'd cut this deep Living in the moment, wasn't thinking bout the future I thought I got Punk'd, by that nigga Aston Kutcher I thought we were forever, I ain't think I'd lose ya I went from a king, back down to a loser I'm a mess right now And I know I did this Chances, slim to none Look, why did I do this to us Every minute that I'm not with you That's another second, dead and gone Sleepless nights Suicidal thoughts, I know it's dead wrong I'm at a point where I can't turn back I'm at place, where I fade black All this love that I have, it's gone, I'm wrong, I know my love is strong Drinking heavy, I'm moving steady, I'm faded daily, an acting crazy I don't feel nothing, my feelings lost, don't try to persuade me It wasn't you at first, it was me that started all of this shxt It doesn't matter cause I'm tired, of all the lies I really loved you...