2am Thoughts

Told you right away I was learning and growing Ima get past this pain Knowing it's showing (Yeah, yeah okay) Gotta keep going and going Now you tryna tell me that I was being mean We both know you know what mean look like We both know that it isn't me I know you can't see what I see I gave you everything I'd give you anything Tryna tell me I only did that Towards the end of things I told you that I was growing Sorry that's when you noticed And I don't understand the hostility Who's in your ear whispering This ain't the you I knew What happened to civility I ain't the greatest and I know it Sometimes my problems are showing Sometimes anxiety blows it Sometimes depression takes over Once you told me that you never had the want to die You didn't understand my suffering Sorry I wasn't around all the time My happiness was buffering That's because I been through my shit Only got so much I'm able to give But I still gave you everything And that's you became to me You said that we'd still be friends No matter what anybody thinks Apparently that just wasn't true So who can I trust if not you And when I get my wings Ima go and see my baby You welcome to join me I'd prefer for us not to be broken All I want is peace And I want to thank my Papa I know you taking care of my baby So, when I know I'm ready to fly Ima meet you both right in the sky Like baby, daddy's coming Don't you be tripping Your momma got a beautiful soul Make sure you listen I'm sorry we didn't talk about you much I kept that distant But you was on my mind every day Let me know if you can put me in the right direction When I do wrong, hit me with corrections I wonder if you can read my mind But you probably already know about my wine collection Like Baby's first breath Baby's first steps Baby's first wordplay Baby's first birthday Milestone shit Pop it open when you thirsty And I love your momma Know I always will I hope she can be cool with me like back in 2020 Wouldn't that be something Baby, wouldn't that be lovely Recognized my flaws I was steady fixing'em Giving it my all Guess I wasn't quick enough But that ain't my fault Good things take time It's all I would want But we on different grinds You saying I didn't put you first in my life You saying that you was always second Thing is you wasn't even numbered You were the eggs in my breakfast You were the indent of my pillow where my neck is You were the gas that was always in my engine ... I know I'm not good at showing things that I've mentioned You told me move on That'll take time You'll always be in my heart 'Cause it wasn't mine You'll always be in my ears 'Cause I love to rhyme If you ever hear this project I know you may hate me That's the vibe I'm getting lately But I love you And you don't gotta love me back I just want friendship I just want peace (I'm getting lately) (I love you and you don't gotta love me back) ... (I just want peace)