I Can't Stand It

Looking around what I see now Looking around what I see now I'm sorry I wasn't around I wasn't around Holding my breath, can I breathe now Taking a sec, I can't breathe now. Red rivers, red lakes, red sea now Red oceans, red ponds, red puddles Two chances, but damn we made it Sadly, the third one was trouble Please know that I love you Please know that I love you And please stop thinking that it was your fault 'cause You hurting my heart even more than I thought I wasn't with you, was tryna make money To save for a future for you and ours (And now) (I can't imagine what you're going through) (Because I'm hurting) (And I'm tryna be here for you) (Not tryna be overbearing or under your feet) (But, I just wanna be with you) (Beside you) (But I can't stand it right now) (And I'm sorry) (It hurts) (Dunno what to think) (Gotta keep moving) (Hospital trips) (Back and forth) (And I'm) (Begging for this) (This understanding) (That I'm looking for) (I'm just) My family was with you Everyone but me And baby I'm sorry I had no clue It's my first time Dunno what to do We in the same shoes I shoulda flew home I thought we was good Was told the results I thought we was good I did my research I thought we was good I said my prayers I felt like I should You say it's God's Plan I'm glad you think so Because I just wanna blow up beast mode Throw shit around And cause a freak show I'm falling apart Hope you can't see though I'm falling apart Hope you can't see though