Soldier's Lullaby

My name is Raymond but I go by Russ Truth is, I don't remember too much Did a six month stint in Kandahar 'Til a bullet shattered my left arm And they packed me up and shipped me home My high school sweetheart spent a year by my side Just waiting patient for the bones to heal up right But the wires crossed inside my head Were a circuit that she couldn't mend So she packed up and headed home It's ringing in my ears as her words hang in space You're still alive by God's good grace But I'm back bleeding in the sand Every time I close my eyes Living in this soldier's lullaby The VA doctor said I'm fixed good as new Looking at an x-ray, just his version of the truth But the Percocet he gave away Sweet capsules made of pure escape They wrap me up, bring me home It's ringing in my ears as his words hang in space You're still alive by God's good grace But I'm back bleeding in the sand Every time I close my eyes Living in this soldier's lullaby The pharmacy cut me off as winter turned spring I found a friend who said that he could keep the angels singing A simple prick and I could fly Beyond these fractures in my mind Lift me up, send me home It's ringing in my ears as I'm floating in space You're still alive by God's good grace But I'm back bleeding in the sand Every time I close my eyes Living in this soldier's lullaby Sometimes I wonder if you'd love me better dead Fallen in a combat zone, 'stead of left out here to beg I'd be draped beneath your sacred flag Not frozen in my sleeping bag Wrap me up, send me home