Head Against the Wall

I got solid to my east and liquid to my west Sometimes I got them mixed up like the mashes in my head Up north is where I hang my hopes as unknown flying object Down south a plastic garden where I bury up my train wreck A perfect little system A glamorous little prison I feed myself with man-made fruits regardless of their season An input with white lies An output that's in disguise I treat myself alright inside this unintelligent blight So I panicked when ecstasy was coming The sheer amount of feelings are like rocket to the ceiling I knew I had to kill it before fuels started leaking There were poison in hopeful expectations The same amount as it's in every face of disappointment But never seen on those who don't believe in self contentment All of your pains and all of your pleasures Will be equal after all When every road feels like a detour Just to make it simple I'd bang my head against the wall In hope of feeling a snippet of joy I'd bang my head against the wall In hope of feeling a snippet of joy Bang my head against the wall Bang my head against the wall Bang my head against the wall Bang my head against the wall Let's cut to the core Go straight to rewards The circuit is a serpent coiling inside your drawer Too much a trouble to unravel and life's too short So people magnified their pupils and burst through the door But I believe in balance What goes around comes around They can't escape that yin and yang And it's lavish How our brains bake cakes for those self-inflicted pains I found a way to enforce it To grab on the handle of holy endorphins It's pouring when crisis and stresses were torn and wide open The water tastes like heaven when I'm standing in a drought For that I'd put a razor blade directly in my mouth The sharper side that always slices me from inside out Is the other side of joy that I could never live without All of your pains and all of your pleasures Will be equal after all When every road feels like a detour Just to make it simple I'd bang my head against the wall In hope of feeling a snippet of joy I'd bang my head against the wall In hope of feeling a snippet of joy Bang my head against the wall Bang my head against the wall Bang my head against the wall Bang my head against the wall In hope of feeling a snippet of joy