Still Lovers (Demo)

How many times do you think I'll Crawl back into your arms after you've dropped And left my heart like broken clocks? How many times will it take us To realize that we've misused The time we had before we knew We're not good for each other? Left us with nothing but wondering What could have been if we tried harder? Would it have worked wonders? We'd look back at it laughing 'Cause in the end we're still lovers How many times will it take me To walk away before you hit With harsher words, maybe your fist? But what would I do? It's me and you It wouldn't take away the blue It's been enough, and we've been through this We're not good in the long end Left me with nothing but wondering What could have been if I wasn't stronger? Would I see the sky's bluest? Would I feel safe holding your hand? But by the end, we won't be lovers 'Cause I deserve way better than the learning that you need Why should I sit here thinking, "is it better if I leave?" Well, I wanna do this kindly and not hurt you anymore But by doing it that way I've left myself back at the door And I deserve much better than the yelling and the screams Than the wandering, busy feeling of not being enough, baby 'Cause I let myself down time and time again, there's no respect for me How would I demand loving when my own's not genuine? And I deserve way better than the crying myself to sleep Than the standing in the mirror hating every inch I see How will I preach for self-love when I let these things happen to me? If I don't stand up for myself, you would stand on top of me And I know I deserve so much better than the bullshit that you did With that fucking little lie saying you "love" me, then you cheat! I've been nothing but a fool forgiving you for all of this All the pictures and your fixtures they will haunt you in your sleep 'Cause I deserve (I deserve, I deserve) I deserve better 'Cause I deserve (I deserve, I deserve) I deserve better Yes, I deserve (I deserve, I deserve) I deserve better And you deserve (I deserve, I deserve) Better How many times has it taken me To realize I'm all that I need And it's better like this