Level 429

Hello It is 1:26am cnd here's what I have to say about that I'm drunk and high On Sunday night ct home alone On level 429 Of some phone game Dirty dishes in the kitchen Lucky me, I wound up with the future I envisioned I been watching sitcoms from the nineties Sorta kinda, autoplaying while I spiral I'm a mess but I'm fun about it I'm a mess but so what about it I'm trimming loose threads Every which way Caring way less Bout the old game Getting way more In my own way Keep the blinds closed For a few days Doing weird shit In my little cave Gained a little weight Cause I eat when I'm stoned cnd I'm stoned all the time Weed isn't addictive so I'm probably fine I'm a rockstar I'm a loser I make people sad I'm so funny I'm pathetic I'm a passing fad I don't know what I want from this I don't know what my purpose is I don't believe in purposes I don't believe in permanence I don't believe in much these days I miss religion, I miss faith I miss community and praise I wish I had a poker face I'm the cat curiosity killed I'm unlikely to feel fulfilled I'm a sinner if sin is real If sin is real I'm fucked But that's so unlikely People are people and we do people shit cs a human I feel I'm able to speak to this We tried our darndest to rationalize our feebleness Now it's falling apart I'm a rockstar I'm a loser I make people sad I'm so funny I'm pathetic I'm a passing fad I'm not sure That nothing matters What if something does? I know more cnd now I'm not cs happy as I was I'm drunk and high On Sunday night ct home alone On level 429 Of some phone game