Am I an Orphan or a Ghost

I flashed my ID at the liquor store he glanced and asked if I had another plastic Description I said no and had a fit he said son you're looking lit you should go and sleep it off some My face has changed I'll give you that but I've lost my will to look intact I said I had a lover I had a host a shot gun wedding I was tied to a post with a cigarette In my mouth They cocked the gun to break the mold I was rendered with a blind fold as the town Talked I timbered I fell like a treat with a trunk full of sap a river of tears upon the map Am I an orphan or a ghost Am I an orphan or a ghost Resurrected but misdirected my dignity I had to collect as I gathered my senses Yea I could a screamed out your name but if everyone's a doing the same I doubt you Would hear me White noise static satellite a cafeteria throughout the night Am I an orphan or a ghost Am I an orphan or a ghost So you caught me diving in the trash reaping the benefits of a Whole Foods in Oakland Yea you caught me Bumming cigarettes in the smoky hills of Tennessee where a tree Once stood golden Well if God is king then who am I when life has come to pass me by Am I an orphan or a ghost Am I an orphan or a ghost