DRY PAINT

I'm looking at these walls as dry paint thickens It seems like when I talk, nobody listens To a thing I say, my words go in one ear and out the other like a drain That just keeps on dripping, it dries out my ambition Bad habits, no attachments, focused more on peace and quiet I've been lacking, no relaxing, even when my stress is absent Can't be speaking in the past tense I'm not focused on things that I want, only focused on things that I need Began to not love my own art, became my own worst enemy Too close to be feeling so lost, protecting my own energy Temporary remedies won't help when I know you're gonna leave Better late than never, finally worked on my mental Now I'm conquering this evil, no more dancing with the devil Didn't see my true potential, in the dark I cannot shine Take this weight off of my mind, what's the consequences to live in a materialistic life It seems I have it all, but what's hidden behind the blinds If you compete with other people, you'll always be one step behind Worried bout what I don't have, need to be thankful for what is mine Only way to peace that I could find Unaware of my behavior and my mistakes Discouraged by my failures, I thought that I would break down And never try again Locked my heart inside a vault, and throw the keys into the lake I feared that I was lost and wasn't sure what it would take to come around And get out of my head Plenty times that I've had nothing left When I've been at my worst, I make my best No longer seek the validation of people who never had a bit of patience Ending every conversation before I get my hopes up thinking you'll get my situation Life is complicated, most nights I sit alone with my thoughts wishing I was not created Then I get out of my bed, thankful for my life, I'm blessed My family and my friends who never turned they back, I got you all up until the end I shouldn't wait to make all of these changes in the new year Remember times I begged for someone who cared Held myself back from too many chances cause I was too scared No longer am I a victim to all the things that I do fear I'm finally free, I can truly be me Truly be me, I can truly be me, I can truly be me I can truly be me Truly be me, I can truly be me, I can truly be me I can truly be me Truly be me, I can truly be me, I can truly be me I can truly be me Truly be me, I can truly be me, I can truly be me I'm looking at these walls as dry paint thickens It seems like when I talk nobody listens To a thing I say, my words go in one ear and out the other like a drain That just keeps on dripping, it dries out my ambitions