Dichotomy

Am I the chosen one or a schizo living pain free Remind me when it's done it's always how it's meant to be Do this shit on my own cause really there's like ten of me But I just can't go on I've been slipping in out myself I can't take it Don't know what I'm gonna do next Can't anticipate it All I ever feel is unrest I can't blame it Anxious to be where it's dangerous I can't face it Vodka spills on my leather jeans Coffee stains on my khaki pants I can be who you want me to be Live in hypocrisy or a fucking dichotomy Fighting what's inside me I'm alone Understand some things I gotta do on my own I can't understand this mind of mine Back and forth with who I am I can't live or die Am I the chosen one or a schizo living pain free Remind me when it's done it's always how it's meant to be Do this shit on my own cause really there's like ten of me But I just can't go on I've been slipping in out myself I can't take it Don't know what I'm gonna do next Can't anticipate it All I ever feel is unrest I can't blame it Anxious to be where it's dangerous I can't face it