Always+Worry

I couldn't walk away with love Didn't have the stomach for the violence Couldn't keep the food down in my room Waiting for the end of my time here Drunk rants on the spam bout death Turned to an argument real quick I've been hiding pain like the hide gold Chest full of flesh with a lock on it I gave her the key ain't no copy of it Didn't know that made me a target though It's a new dawn Wake up every morning To a chess board at a stalemate She got homecourt advantage In the day time it's the slander When she call at night imma answer Just like Ohhh Baby Everyday I prayed for change was really a prayer for you Never realized I was really prey to a bird crying out wolf Ye it's heartbreaking Get the shards tape em Bandage on my fingers Pain of rebuilding Who I see in mirrors Ye he look familiar Trust you've never met him Probably for the better if I Don't eat what's between them thighs That feeling died with no tombstone The ghost of it lingers Is this what you wanted? I still can't feel any guilt for it No need to argue that yesterday's gone away Don't need your love or lack there of To know I'll be whole again I said what I said Her calls coming in like Ohhh Baby I desperately need you to get your shit together But you have to do it calmly We're making an empire out of cards on very thin ice Been living life with this tension I hit that Iso quick Lost half my soul This three-six deal wasn't signed in ink Of course I thought real love was dangerous Part of me knew it was strange I Let this ruin my life In love with pain I don't feel normal when I'm not stressed I hate this woe-of-me Lil tone I speak on tracks This vulnerable shit never lasts I'm perceived as perfect While pushing this boulder like Sisyphus And I'm chained linked for a purpose These shackles broken, this prison I'm in These self inflicted four mistakes Cuz every reflection is not my face And I feel like I'm crazy So I don't explain nothing You won't make it any further Unless you let all this stuff go now The wind will turn you stone Before you even have a chance to get where you need to go And then you'll be truly stuck here Forever.