Paralysis (feat. Blackant)

Feeling under the weather I ain't ever getting better I'll write my suicide note in all capital letters Carve this in my tombstone You'll see it on the header I never wanted the fame And cheddar Lord I just wanna forget her I hate myself more than you could measure Will I carry this pain forever From birth I've been a error The knife meant to take my life on the vein applying pressure Hold it double back you don't wanna relapse Don't you get off track stay on the path Yo What about your friends Why not carry this burden for them They don't wanna see you end And I know you feel condemned Cause it's always keeping you from getting Ahead Don't you let him win I need you to acsend Here's what I recommend the plan of action now begins I know it's hard to hold conversations when it feels like the good insides breaking Am I beyond salvation That's my interpretation Pulling away into isolation Full of suicidal ideation My realization is my understanding Leaving things mismatched and misplaced and using the and 12 gauge Leaving a bloody mess including the fucking switchblade Many memories are made to forget and left unsaid Some days I'm wishing I could wake up just to be found dead Took things for granted and learned a lot of lessons Waiting for a funeral You better call the reverend Living life full of glitches Nothing but pessimistic Another case closed another statistic Living life's a lie A mind in the matrix Think your special but your basic You want a fire shots at me I might as well take it Pulling the trigger A matter of time No contemplation My life on the line like a hostage situation Am I beyond salvation That's my interpretation Pulling away into isolation Full of suicidal ideation