Sinking

I'm sinking, hope I don't drown Never felt this down And when the snow fell down, my whole life turned around Reliving memories wishing I was free (free, free) Feelings in waves of three Three days happy three months cold breeze So if somebody checked up on me I tell them, that I ain't had sleep lately And I don't know if I'll ever flee Been stuck in my mind as long I remember And my days seem to intertwine My last good memory from when I was younger So, I think it's time for a goodbye But a reason might soon come So I can't be to blame for new times And my mind got me overthinking and jinxing the future Leaving me to the past Get a lil' happy then I just fall back You probably look down on me, I'm aware I do that when I get out of my bubble Just to realize that I've been distracted Tried to come back to some old friends But my depression was still present I can't imagine how my parents feels I probably look like I'm ungrateful Cause I respond with a straight face Go work for eight hours then come home late Days only highlight from what I ate Check the calendar, don't care bout the date I'm longing for my death Three months passed since my last good day School week never felt this short Can't wait until Friday until I get home Saturdays I rot alone So I can never call nowhere my home 17 years still going strong Hourglass, sand keeps falling on Been missing out on everything So I don't know better I can't have my voice This the lonely song This the lonely song I want to escape when I'm in public And then leave when I get home No choice but to drown in emptiness I had a moment of peace, ignorance was bliss But there was no point in living alone Suicidal thoughts I do the same nonsense every day And it always ends up like I thought Alone and miserable, I can't aspire for nun When there is nothing I enjoy And I couldn't bond with any one So, possible volunteers who might care, I'm out I'm sinking, yeah, hope I don't drown Never felt this down And when the snow fell down, my whole life turned around Reliving memories wishing I was free (free, free) Feelings in waves of three Three days happy three months cold breeze So if somebody checked up on me I tell them, that I ain't had sleep lately I'm sinking, yeah, hope I don't drown Never felt this down And when the snow fell down, my whole life turned around Reliving memories wishing I was free (free, free) Feelings in waves of three Three days happy three months cold breeze So if somebody checked up on me I tell them, that I ain't had sleep lately I'm sinking, yeah, hope I don't drown Never felt this down And when the snow fell down, my whole life turned around Reliving memories wishing I was free, free, free Feelings in waves of three Three days happy three months cold breeze So if somebody checked up on me I tell them, that I ain't had sleep lately I'm sinking