All For Nothing

I already got used to it But I forgot it again Feels like there's one out there who makes fun of my life Until the day I'm dead There's nothing perfect There's nothing fine There's nothing even good that will ever be mine Most often I just ignore shit But it's serious this time Looking at the work of the lovely shepherd Unable to help, that's a lie Should try to be better Just met that angel who was quiet The story so deep but I shouldn't know why Why don't you trust me? Trust issues raging wild (sleepless nights) Surviving the day, living the evening I don't wanna wake up, life's just teasing me Who the f*ck wrote this story? I'm just trying to live As I pay It's all for nothing Every decision will be wrong from now on I will only harvest the pain And it's all for nothing All for nothing I don't wanna judge I just want to cry I wanna see the water fall from your eyes I need to connect I need to protect Who's leading your crime? It could've been perfect It could've been fine Actually good, but how crazy am I? That I really believed in wings which are broken as I'm And maybe it will kill myself when I listen to your story that night But that's okay I fell for you I won't fall deeper this time Who the f*ck wrote this story? I'm just trying to live As I pay It's all for nothing Every decision will be wrong from now on Let me carry all of your pain And it's all for nothing I paid but they forgot my order Just a bit of happiness that I wanted to gift to us But I forgot to bring my lawyer Picked it up like nothing Didn't expect to be doomed again Felt your ways, could relate Like a room of mirrors then Something really caught me but the path was longer than I thought And there were no torches showing up a way to cross the road How can I ever help you when you accept anxiety as part of personality And tell me "well, that's just me" I realized to late 'Cause the more I invested The harder it broke me I'm caught in the dark No, I don't wanna move no more Every step has a direction Every step will make me fall There's no reason for trying to pass Except that I have to No way to explain There's nothing I can do Who the f*ck wrote this story? I'm just trying to live As I pay It's all for nothing Every decision will be wrong from now on I will only harvest the pain It's all for nothing Who the f*ck wrote this story? I'm just trying to live As I pay It's all for nothing Every decision will be wrong from now on Let me carry all of your pain And it's all for nothing