These Songs

Seen my own blood sell out for some money More important things than fifties and hundreds Seen my dawg play the field cause he had to eat Why the ones I know love me most six feet Try to live with no regrets and no apologies But the pain keep building that's inside of me Know I'm not the only one still tense at night Know my dawg when he lay he hold his stick tight Five years can't stay without some pills on me Million dollar mouth got no grills on me Real life of death shit I'm dealing with It's gone I can't make bread or benefit From a young age had big dreams Try to see the future I was sixteen Two years can change you learned the hard away Two years of pain took my heart away In my head where all the pain is kept Life changed me I could explain in depth No emotions just anger left Sixteen wasn't scared of death Pray to God let me right my wrongs Can't explain so I write these songs So tired go no shame to hide Not true it's just hid with pride Gotta medicate the pain so it leave me Gotta compensate so niggas can't see me Only 6 got shit we don't talk about Till two months ago all that time I went without Couldn't open up then didn't know how Wish I knew then what I know now Years later, the pain didn't stop then Shit from way back, wit me all where i been They don't feel me in my heart They don't feel my pain They don't understand my soul They don't see my aim They don't understand my role They don't know my range They'll smile in your face And got shit to gain Only talking bout blood when I say twin Ready move out the city time to get locked in All I know is grind shit is inked in If you need that know a few men Love sun cause I know the rain Love joy cause I know the pain Can't miss i know where to aim Can't lose too much to gain In my head where all the pain is kept Life changed me I could explain in depth No emotions just anger left Sixteen wasn't scared of death Pray to God let me write my wrongs Can't explain so I write these songs So tired got no shame to hide Not true its just hid with pride Be joyful in hope,patient in affliction and faithful in prayer