STRESS

Nothin to it just been stressed And I feel guilty, People in my inner circle say I'm blessed But I feel filthy I think I'm letting them down That feeling right before you drown When all the lights dim low, When it seems like time goes slow Why don't you call no more Why don't you come around the crib and come and chill no more, C? I've been this way as long as I can remember Embers are the remnants of the memories That September When my Gre-Gre done passed I lived a block up the road and she done slipped from my grasp But it aint just her that I've hurt And I know that I will do worse But ill sit and figure it out there's nothing to it man I Just been stressed Just been stressed This ain't no pity party playa, I'm speaking my thoughts Like that gambler up at night ruminating counting his loss My perspective is divided, blindsided by all the moments I've missed While I was up in my cave just tryin to write a new hit And make it all worthwhile, the tribulations and trials The self doubt, the self loathing and mutilations Hostile, is my image in the mirror, tryin to see the picture clearer, but my vision is tainted It's kinda funny to me, IC can't see the greatest All the moments I've missed up working just trying to be famous Drug overdoses I'm wasting away inside the darkness Forever been heartless, my façade portrays I'm flawless I hate my mind so much I'm feelin numb Sedation comes in many ways and forms no hesitations, I'm worn Down to the nub, to the gristle and the marrow, and through I'm fighting demons, true baby its true Coke, lust, booze it's true Envy, jealousy, sloth it's true Weed, pills, anger it's true Escape, hatred, fear it's true Stress Just been stressed