Thoughts Inside

You want a trip inside my life, well let me take you there I'm fightin demons, steady screamin, see this evil glare These evil people will deceive me, they don't even care They battered on my mind last year, I think I'm broke beyond repair By my appearance you would think that I'm a beast Ain't showered in three days. I haven't shaved in fuckin weeks In a month I'm outta luck and I'll be sleepin on the streets My life is all fucked up, but hear the passion when I speak Compassion in defeat, but I ain't givin up Try to be a better person but my tryin ain't enough Try to put the homies on but just promotin me is tough Cuz I can lift the homies up but we can't pay the bills with love It's all love though, I thank you all kindly I never woulda guessed that you'd be standin right behind me If iCue lose himself one day, I pray you do remind me Cuz nothin quite the same as when the stage lights blind me I itch, I ache. My body craves to be up on the stage I grip the mic because the music make me feel no pain But when the sun come up, then everybody goes away And all I'm left with is the thoughts inside my fuckin brain You wanna step inside my brain, you wouldn't last a day It's a catastrophe, someone take the past away Devil pass me Xanax just to numb the constant passin waves I'm on a one way, going the wrong way in an escalade Look at the mess I've made. I'm the only one to blame Am I the only motherfucker looks back at himself ashamed Am I the only one who's standin in the pourin rain Do it all the same? I swear I'd never stoop so low again I need that novocaine, numb me till the sun come up Pain won't go away though, it's the only thing that never does I crave the stage, and that's when angels come and show me love Every other hour I feel I'm trapped inside the devil's clutch Devil playin double dutch, double up what's in my cup Double up the trouble, screams are muffled by my pumpin subs Pump em till my drums erupt, I ain't gonna get the door I ain't getting up, just leave me layin on this kitchen floor I itch, I ache. My body craves to be up on the stage I grip the mic because the music make me feel no pain But when the sun come up, then everybody goes away And all I'm left with is the thoughts inside my fuckin brain