Sad Song

I got some angels, but these demons always creeping me Can't seem to shake 'em off, got reasons for my secrecy Don't wanna be leaning on these feelings, no, they're killing me You wanna talk about some grief, I'm the epitome Yeah, I learned a lot, I'm still learning to swim I did what I did and that boy grew to a man At the same time, was so caught in my head If I could go back, I'd probably f*ck up again I tell my girl that I love her, I kiss her tenderly But I'm always thinking that there's something she's not telling me Tryna spell it out for myself like a spelling bee but I always tell myself I'm fine when something's wrong with me Don't test me, don't lecture me Not today, no, stay away Sadboy, motherfucker, so sad Uh aight, this is how I roll So many doobies that I don't know where to go Eyes closed and they so low that I don't know anymore Now I don't go, now I'm so ghost Off Patron shouting most dope listening to Mac Milly Always got the blues while I'm sliding down the park, swimming Oh my God, this is like a nostalgic feeling When you gone, no one will even wanna talk to me Am I wrong to be lost and forgotten? All along I've been constantly caught in My thoughts are a product of problems I pray to God, at night in my apartment But I'm a goner, I treat my girl like I don't want her And f*ck the holidays, I couldn't even see my daughter Tripping out Thinking about the wrongs that I've done All the wrongs that I've done All the things I've done you don't even know I can read your mind yeah daddy's doing fine yeah Except for the fact that it feels like I'm gonna die yeah Except for the fact that it feels like I gotta lie By myself at night while I'm laying with my open eyes I do the right things wrong and the wrong things right What I tell myself is some lost advice I'm a fucking black sheep, I've been ostracized Left out in the rain singing lullabies Feeling really, feeling really shitty My soul's getting darker every time that you're near me And my heart's cracking more and more, I fear that you fear me And I can't stop from thinking that I might be the reason I've been feeling the stress, I've been playing pretending Over and over again, I don't mean to offend I just need to get rest, but there's no peace in that shit Something's wrong with my head, so I'm so gone in the wind Mmm, ah, ah, yeah Mmm, ah, ah, yeah